Catching Up

So it is time to get back into the blog world. AA had his first trip to the dentist for a cavity filling. Apparently his last molar is "malformed" and the contour of his tooth sets him up for cavity due to the ridge. I may have to use this excuse the next time I am indulging in Friendly's ice cream, followed by root canal.

Here is the big guy in the dentist chair. Yes as you can see, it was as pitiful as he looks.

I'm already there

I have been spending alot of time in quiet prayer at night, just me and the Lord contemplating the questions of life. The why, and when and fairness of the situation at hand. I spoke to my best friend Molly today, who by the way always brings me joy. I find that her words are far beyond this life, and her belief in our Saviour, is one of the great things about her.
I feel like I don't want to move forward, because we would be leaving Eric behind. While I know in my head this is not so, because one's memory goes on beacuse someone takes them with, I seem to be caught in this thought process today. So I asked for God's help today in making sure that Eric is here with us and then this song came on the radio:

I'm already there, Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
I'm already there.
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are


So today I am encouraged by this verse, as the forget me nots bloom in the garden, ladybugs land on my hand and stay for a while and the sun seems to shine through the clouds when I give it to God. I may not understand all of his ways, but I know that he is Faithful. I know that his plan, is greater than we can imagine.
So today while praying, I am going to give it all to him, our Father, the Potter's hands:


Beautiful Lord, Wonderful SaviourI know for sure, all of my days are held in your hands,
crafted into your perfect planYou gently call me into your presence guiding me by Your
Holy Spirit Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyesI'm captured by Your
holy calling Set me apart, I know you're drawing me to yourself Lead me Lord I
pray, Take me, Mould me, use me, fill meI give my life to the Potter's hand Call me, guide
me, lead me, walk beside meI give my life to the Potter's handyou gentlly call me into your
presence guidin me by your holy spirit teach me dear lord to live through your eyes I'm
captured by you holy callingset me apart, I know your drawing me to yourself lead me
lord I pray.

Trying to Find Normal

As we try to get back to day to day, it just isn't the same. But our children, need to see us be normal and cope. So, Megan and I took the kids to my folks swimming. Here they are.

Prayer for this family

Because I am an avid blog reader...daily in fact, and I happen to have met a lot of great people of the years, I am delighted to tell you that through a great friend I am now sharing a journey with you in their Adoption story.
So Gang's All Here has received a call about a possible Referral. I remember that day so vividly when we were presented with our daughters photo, medical information, and an acceptance letter and 24 hours to respond. Here's the difference, with AA I had 9 months to prepare, I knew he was growing, didn't know what he would look like, prayed that he would be healthy but knew that in a reasonable time frame he would be here. With adoption, it is a roller coaster, filled with unexpected pregnancy lengths, delays, joys and emotions that somehow only adoptive parents can explain or feel.
Today, I am lifting these dear people up, as they read about their daughter, seek the Lord's guidance and make a choice that will change their life forever. From one adoptive mother to another, trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. My daughter has changed my life, and blessed are they that know her.
Many Blessings

I am the Lord who heals you…” (Exodus 15:26b)

I am the Lord who heals you…” (Exodus 15:26b)
When your heart is shattered, there is one truth you need to hold on to: God loves you unconditionally. God does hear us when we call for his help. We all know our family needs his help this week. We need to hold on to this important truth. God created us with an innate desire to know and love him. While this desire will last eternally, trauma can shock it into temporary dormancy. My prayer and trust is in the Lord, and I pray that he will heal my family from the inside out.

Finding Normal

Today, I ventured into work and as I sit here, I am wondering if this is a good idea.
Surronded by photos of our family and all of our happy times, brings a void that fills my heart and my life today.
The last two weeks have been unbearable and I believe now we start the healing process. I know that Eric would want us to go on as before, but normal isn't normal, when the hole is so big inside our hearts.
My only prayer is that tomorrow will be easier than today, that the normal carries his legacy to the highest degree, and that he knows now, as he did then just how much we love him, are proud of him, and miss him.

The Broken Chain

We little knew that day,
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death, we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you.
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And although we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.


Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.